During her intense filming schedule, she has endured hours of violent and abusive scenes as part of her role on the HBO series, Big Little Lies.
Many of the scenes were disturbing enough that they left her “damaged” and “drained,” but Nicole Kidman also explained in a 2017 interview, that she didn’t want to instruct her co-star to stop because she was committed to making the scenes real.
In the series, her character, Celeste Wright, is the wife of a well-to-do man and together they portray an image of a perfect life for all to see, but behind closed doors, they have a violent and abusive relationship that nobody sees.
Speaking with Entertainment Tonight on the red carpet, Kidman revealed that she sometimes had a hard time disconnecting from her work and returning to family life – but there was one thing that helped more than anything.
“Luckily I have a partner who is artistic so he understands what it takes to support that,” Kidman said about coming home to Keith Urban. “[He] would hold me, and I was really upset at times. Really damaged and really upset and physically and emotionally drained and in pain… Luckily I have that at home and I also have people I can talk to and get it out.”
Even though the first season took both an emotional and physical toll on her and made it more difficult than normal to disconnect when she got home, Kidman says that she would gladly welcome a chance to come back for more seasons of the show.
Watch her full interview and clips of her intensely violent scenes below.